The Favored One

Today is totally unplanned.  A very hard day to say the least.  I think I am having a harder time being patient and making wise decisions.  I got a call this morning that my dad has been admitted to the hospital, put in ICU, and now being transferred via ambulance to the Oklahoma Heart Hospital in OKC.  Warren and I are trying to make decisions and get things in order here in El Dorado to possibly head that way in the next hour or so.

I don't like this one bit.



Me and my dad back in the day



As I am waiting to hear what the doctors in OKC say, all I can think about is Warren's email he sent to the parents of students in the youth ministry a few weeks ago:

(From Warren's email)

Thru the Christmas season I’m doing some devotionals from the “YouVersion” Bible app on my iPhone. Today’s devo brought up the angel Gabriel calling Mary “favored.” I wonder if a physical representative from the realms of glory showed up in my room and told me that I was favored by God how I would react. The initial thoughts probably would be that my life had just turned comfortable, that everything was worked out, smooth-sailing. “Favored by God” would surely mean that He’s going to mow down my enemies, provide riches, and release all the stresses of life. But that is NOT what it meant for Mary. Very soon after she heard those words, her betrothed, Joseph, would consider divorce. Her community would ridicule and scorn. She would soon take a journey to Bethlehem that was dangerous. She would very much be concerned about the provisions for her family. She would be giving birth to whom she thought was the Savior of the world … in a stable. Physical worries, financial worries, relationship worries … none of that sounds like “favor.”

A lot of Christianity today focuses on the “favor” of God making it sound like a life of ease and comfort. However, in reality, following God does not mean a life that is trouble free and one where all your dreams come true. The mother of Jesus alone teaches us that. “Favor” means, very simply, that God is willing to use you, willing to speak through you, willing to work through you, willing to show Himself strong in you. And often, that happens most in difficult and trying situations. God’s favor meant that God had invaded Mary’s life. He was no longer a concept, an idea, a thought. He was no longer a story. He was no longer Someone high above and distant. He WAS near… active … personal … acting … guiding.

Deeper into the holiday season, my prayer is that we sense God’s favor on our lives, not a life where “all our dreams come true,” but a life fulfilled knowing that God is working on us, in us, and through us. “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God.” Luke 1:30

What comforting words today.  Lord, I need Your favor.


I will keep you posted on my dad~ MG

Baby Jesus costs too much!

Tomorrow I am heading to Little Rock with some gals from school for a couple of days at a Reading Conference.  I am so excited about the conference and the things I will (hopefully!) learn. 
While we are in Little Rock, I am pretty sure we will do some shopping and eating!  I personally don't have a whole lot of shopping to do.  Over the past month I have done an excellent job (for me!) at ordering some Christmas gifts for the kids.  In fact, I have all of Elise's Christmas shopping finished!  I have been detouring Elise from seeing the UPS, FedEx, and USPS deliverers and have hid the gifts well (or at least I hope so!). 

SHHHH....Don't tell Elise the hiding spot!

The Christmas season is beginning!  Downtown El Dorado businesses have began their open houses.  The stores are beautiful!  The City is doing their Lighting Ceremony on Thursday.  People are putting up their trees!  Oh my!  Didn't we just take all that stuff down???

I tried my hardest this past week to get in the "spirit".  I thought that a visit to Seasons or Wreaths and More would motivate me to put up the Christmas tree.  I even purchased some wrapping paper and a few decorations while I was there.  But it is just not happening.  The pumpkins are still working just fine for me.

My Christmas "motivation" pile!

When I was shopping last week and having such a hard time at getting "antsy" about decorating for Christmas, I remembered the story about Ethan.  Our Ethan has always been a interesting kid.  The things he says is so random.  The way he does things is so....so....I can't even describe it.  He has always been like that.  Very obedient for the most part. (He has caught the teenage attitude bug lately, urghh!) 

Ethan and Tyler at the Razorback basketball game

A couple of years ago Ethan was really into playing Farmtown on Warren's Facebook account.  He was very committed to making sure he harvested those crops.  He would plant corn, rice, pineapple trees, and Christmas trees all together on a 5 x 5 piece of "land."  I would periodically check on it to make sure he was doing what he was supposed to.  On this particular day, Ethan and I were sitting on the couch.  He was real excited about his plot of land.  He showed me all the newest things he had a bought.  He had some new palm trees, a pond with a yacht in it, and even some camels.  As he moved around on his land something caught my eye.  It was a nativity.  Wise men, Mary, Joseph, Angels, animals, and a stable.  But something was missing.  Jesus.  I looked at Ethan confused and said, "Where's Jesus?"  Innocently he replied back to me, "He cost too much."

"And this will be a sign for you;

you will find a baby wrapped in cloths,

and lying in a manger."

Luke 2:12

Every year at Christmas I remember this conversation I had with Ethan.  I remember the shock I was in when I saw his nativity.  He had everything else about Christmas perfectly placed.  Bought. Wrapped.  Hung.  But no Jesus.  He had the story in mind.  The important story there.  Good intentions.  He wanted Jesus, there just wasn't anything left.  So Jesus had to be left behind.


The Christmas season is here and I don't want to miss HIM.  I don't want to have good intentions and no Jesus.  I don't want to have everything else perfectly in place and realize I  have no more money or time for Jesus.  I need to choose wisely how I will "spend" this Christmas season.

"For a child will be born to us,

A son will be given to us;

And the government will rest on His shoulders;

And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace."

Isaiah 9:6

I will soon need to put that tree up.  We love it so! We love all the fun that goes with it!  The music, the HOHOHO, the candy, the gifts, the excitement like a child.  It is the most wonderful time of the year!

Elise, Uncle Wade, Ethan, Santa (Warren), Tyler, and Poppa Gene.  Christmas 2004

 But I cannot let beautiful tinsel or gorgeous red ornaments get me in the "spirit."  Instead I need the ONE who makes all things beautiful and shed His blood for me.  I need Him to fill my heart with His Spirit. That is what Christmas is all about.  I don't want to miss HIM!    I don't want to be shocked that I missed Him in 37 days when I am taking that tree down. 

"Do not be afraid;

for behold,

I bring you good news of a great joy

which shall for be for all people..."

Luke 2:10

 

"...a Savior, who is Christ the Lord." Luke 2:11b

 

Put on your shopping shoes, check that list twice , grab that big handbag, make memories, and be sure to stop for  a Starbucks along the way. (I suggest a caramel brulee)  Just be sure you don't pass Jesus by as you go.   Happy Black Friday Shopping!

Elise, Warren, Ethan, Poppa Gene, and Tyler.  One of the very last time Poppa Gene played his fiddle.  Christmas 2004





The power of days

On Saturday Warren, Elise and I went to Ethan's last 7th grade football game.  The 7th grade Wildkittens A and B teams went undefeated this season!  What a fun time they had.  What makes it even more fun is how much they like each other.  Best friends. I love to watch these guys together!

Ethan-#77

"A friend loves at all times,

And a brother is born for adversity."

Proverbs 17:17

After the game we stopped off at Michael's to pick up a few things I needed for school this week.  I haven't been to Michael's in a long while.  It was a Texas Michael's to boot (We were in Texarkana).   I was like a kid in a candy store in Michael's.  I liked everything!  Elise and I were flying through the aisles as Ethan and Warren waited for us in the vehicle.

Growing up in Texas means that I did homecoming Texas style until I was 16  (I moved to Arkansas when my parents divorced).  This consisted of a larger than life homecoming mum.  It jingled and jangled and blinged and tore your shirt down all night long!  But oh the joy of having one!  Even better was having a mom that could make them!  This meant weekly,  and at times daily,  trips to Michael's (and Garden Ridge Pottery).  When I saw those many aisles full of homecoming mum making supplies, I became giddy.  I wanted to grab one (or two!) of each just because it reminded me of my mom.

My oldest son was running a cross country meet in Lake Hamilton on Saturday.  He was getting to run with friends from Waldron (where we lived previously for 11 1/2 years).  Only this time he was running against them!  Last week Tyler posted on Instagram  a post that said:

So much wisdom is in that phrase. 

Time is powerful.... Our days do so much for us.  It's what God uses to put us back together. To heal us.  To make us whole. 

"...I will heal him; I will lead him and restore comfort to him..."

Isaiah 57:18

Wal-Mart put out their pumpkins AND santas last month.  These two seasons remind me of my mom so much.  She was a Halloween baby.  Born on October 31.  And more than anything she loved Christmas.  She loved Christmas gifts, icicles on the tree, and making Christmas candy so very much.

It was 8 years ago.  I had no idea that this picture would be the last Christmas to spend together.

"...And in Thy book they were all written,

The days that were ordained for me,..."

Psalms 139:16

 

Our dear friend in Christ, Neil Cherry would knock on our door in the middle of the night to ease us into the news that my momma had passed away.

 My heart ached.  Broken. 

"If  I say, 'Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,

and the light around me will be night,'

Even the darkness is not dark to Thee."

Psalms 139:11-12a

It was a month after we buried her that Dr. Larry Brown called  and checked on me one afternoon.  It was my 28th birthday.  All I could do was listen.  It still hurt so bad.  He said one of the few things that day that I remember from that time and still minister with.  Time will heal the pain.  The memories will become sweet.  God will carry you through this time.

"Be gracious to me, Lord, for I am weak;

heal me, Lord, for my bones are shaking."  Psalm 6:2

Beauty from ashes.

"To grant those who mourn in Zion;

giving them a crown of beauty instead of ashes."

Isaiah 61:3

My security blanket was lost that day on November 19, 2004.  The one I called when my heart was lonely.  The one I called when I felt joy.  The one who would shop til you drop with me.

The one I worried about.  The one I wanted to take financial burdens from.  The one's broken heart I wanted to heal.

The one who could make Garth Brooks seem in the room, the one who spoiled my babies rotten, the one who forgave easily.

8 year later, I miss her.  There are times I just want to pick up the phone and dial her number.  There are times I wonder what her Facebook page would look like (she would have loved it).  I would love to shop one more time for a homecoming mum.

But God healed my heart.  He took my pain and mourning and turned it into joy.  I can sing because of His faithfulness to fill the holes in my heart.

"I will sing of the lovingkindness of the Lord forever;

To all generations I will make known Thy faithfulness with my mouth." Psalm 89:1

 

His word says He makes beauty from ashes.  He makes all things new.  Behold He is doing new things.

The Lord has so much compassion on us.  He provides just what we need to make us well.  Just when we think we can no longer breath from the hurt, He holds us and we breath again. 

We just have to choose to let Him heal us. 
And then tell the story.
 I was wounded, broken, empty.  He picked me up, filled me, and made me walk again.

We all need a beautiful day.  Sometimes it just takes time.  But it comes. 
Trust His heart when you can't trace His hand.


Today I stand in awe of His mighty ways.  Thankful for the promise of heaven. 
Makes me a little homesick.

"...for I go and prepare a place for you.....

I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life......"

John 14:2b, 6a

My man

I am a blessed girl.  When I think about the road to the pit I was headed on 20 years ago, I cringe.  (Did I just say 20?  EEK!)  In one of my first blogs (Run and Never Stop) I talked about my story of Christ rescuing me from that pit I was headed to.  In my blog, A Call in Texas, I shared about how God called us into ministry.  Those are the two foundations in my life.  The rocks.  The reasons.  The rescue.

"For who is God, besides the Lord? 

 And who is a rock, besides our God?"  2 Samuel 22:32

But right in the middle of those two life changing times, God brought me my man.  Warren G. 



It was at this time of year 19 years ago that I was beginning my junior year of high school and he was about to leave for his sophomore year of college at the University of Arkansas. I had only been in Arkansas for about 8 months.  My parents had divorced and my mom moved us to Arkansas from Texas to be closer to her family.

Warren in Razorback band at UofA

 

Me playing in band at halftime and cheering the rest for MHS

 My younger brother, Kyle was at the FBC Mansfield, AR basketball court playing ball with some guys.  I was on my daily jog around town when I stopped to relay a message to Kyle from my mom.  That's where I started talking with Warren.  I had seen Warren around that summer at church and with some friends.  But it was that day that we spoke to each other.  After a good while of standing around talking, Warren asked Kyle and me if we wanted a ride home.  Probably not a great idea getting in the car with a semi-stranger, but we did.

Little did I know, this was the man God had for me, for life.  The one I would marry 2 years later, drive crazy for the next 19 years, devise plans for disciplining our children with, physically walk many miles with, dream with, travel with, minister beside, laugh with, dance in the kitchen with, hide behind when I felt weak, cry with, gain strength from, and in the depths of my soul, dread the day I would ever be left on this earth without.

That's my Warren.

"I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine,..."

Song of Soloman 6:3

 

This past week a precious family from our hometown lost their husband, dad, and grandfather.  A man still young and so very kind.  Gary would stand outside the doors of Upward with Pam for many years at FBC Mansfield and greet those that entered.  Their daughter was Tyler's first grade teacher.  Such a godly family.

Pam posted on her Facebook later in the day after his death.  "Made it home. Long drive."
After I read this post I walked into the living room, wanting to tell Warren what she had said.  I also just wanted to tell him how my heart ached for them. 

I told him what the post said and I lost it.  Nothing else could come out of my mouth.  My eyes were filling with tears.  I turned around and walked out, my eyes flooded.    My heart was broken for Pam.  I saw my man sitting there in the chair and could not imagine life without him.  This is who I do life with.  I couldn't even imagine her pain.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

 I fear no evil; for Thou art with me;"

Psalm 23:4

 

This Friday (28th)  is Warren's birthday.  Elise and I love throwing a party.  Streamers, balloons, cupcakes.  So much so,  that when she was little, we would throw parties for her baby dolls.  The boys would ALWAYS roll their eyes.  I am sure now they wouldn't even participate.

We always ask Warren what he wants for his birthday.  His answer is always the same year to year.  Peace.  He wants peace.  On my birthday I want a piece of cake.  But no, all he wants is peace.  Peace?


So I began dwelling on what to REALLY get him this year. Peace just didn't seem like a gift.  I wanted something I could wrap up and put a bow on top.  Or better yet, throw in a bag with cute tissue paper. 

 It was during this time of planning that Gary passed away and I couldn't shake what Pam must be feeling.  Couldn't even begin to know.  As I was praying for the family, that gift request of Warren's  came to my mind.  Peace.  So that's what I prayed for the family.

Peace.  God's Peace.  Peace that surpasses all understanding.  Peace He leaves with us.  Peace in the midst of storms.  Peace in the land.  Peace in our lives.  Peace made in families.  Peace like a river.  Peace given by the Prince of Peace.  Peace with God.  Peace, Patience.., Peace through His blood.

Peace. 

He came to give us peace, to place peace in our homes, bind us together in peace, to be peace to us, give us peace of mind, multiply peace in our lives when we need it the most. 

Peace. 


Peace to seek, peace that guards our hearts, peace when we are far or near, Peace in a dark world, peace that is open to us, Peace and joy, perfect peace.

Peace.

As Elise and I plot out the final touches to his birthday week, we want to give Warren the best gift ever.  Maybe Razorback tickets?  A new razor?  A shirt?   IPhone 5?  Oh, he would love a truck!  Old or new!

But one thing is for sure, we could never give a better gift than God has already given His children.

Peace.

It is a gift that never ends.  Never gets old.  Never wears out.  Never misses a pass.  Never fades.  Never gets dents.  Never changes. 

It is a gift that gets us through life. It's what we will need to walk through this life.  It makes the joys complete and the hurts heal.  It's what binds families and faith. 

Peace. 

"Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you..." John 14:27

 

 

Happy Birthday to my favorite person on this earth. 

Overwhelmed that God would choose you to be my man!

What? Science Expectations in Deuteronomy?

Things are crazy around the G5 plot of land as usual.  (And I am pretty sure that will never change!)

Sometimes I try to figure out my identity.  Am I bus route driver or mom?  A student?  Or a volunteer? Maybe an employee?  Maybe a wife?  Cheerleader? Encourager?  Maid, chef, shopper, communicator?  Decorator?  Detailer, or maybe a secretary?  Am a personal tutor, bug exterminator, lawn service, and dog trainer?  Driver education instructor, nurse, and trash lady?  or, I know!  A beautician, stylist, and personal trainer.

Do you ever feel like that?  Simply filled with so many titles that at the end of the day you wonder if you really missed IT?  Maybe you have missed your real identity.  Christ follower.  Child of the King.  The redeemed.  Sinner saved by grace.  His.  Able to do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

There are times that I drop off my children at school and think to myself, Do they know who I am? 
If today was my last day on earth, would they know my heart's deepest desire?
 How would they describe me? 
Who do they think I am? 

What do they think our family's journey of life is all about?

So I asked Ethan.  I knew better to ask Ethan, but I did.

Me: "Ethan, what is my greatest desire?"
Ethan: " Your desire is to drink 20 diet cokes a day."

There you have it. 

What will they answer Monday when the rat race starts up again?  When we are trying to get out the door with lunch pails, homework, piano books, and our sanity?

Or after school as the bus route service Warren and I provide to them via our minivan and suburban passes through?  Picking up one, dropping another off, all evening long?

God has opened the door for me to teach science in third grade this semester at Hugh Goodwin.  (see my previous blog for more insight into this matter) I am having a great time.  I am getting to apply things I am learning in my education classes (at SAU) every Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday in science.  I have purchased a lab coat and goggles to enhance the experience for the kids when my cart rolls into their classroom.  On my cart is LabQuests, ready to be used for learning.  I decided it would be a good thing for the students to be aware of the expectations I have for them.  So a set of Science Expectations were developed and posted on my cart.

As I was going  over these expectations, God spoke.  Somehow God uses the everyday little things in life to change, remind, and show Himself to me.   And science expectations was no exception.

The expectations I have for the children in science is no different than what He has laid out for His children in life.  Expectations for family.  What my main role in life is.

Science Expectations

Deuteronomy 6:4-9, 18



1.  Be ready to learn!

(Anytime the Lord speaks, it should be time for us to learn!)

 

2. Listen to all instructions!

⁴ “Hear, O Israel! The Lord is our God, the Lord is one!   

                    





 

3. Follow all  instructions!

⁵ You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might.

 ⁶ These words, which I am commanding you today, shall be on your heart.

 

 

4. Complete all parts of the lab!

(sometimes my family seems like a lab!)

⁷ You shall teach them diligently to your sons and shall talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way and when you lie down and when you rise up.

⁸ You shall bind them as a sign on your hand and they shall be as frontals on your forehead.

⁹ You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.

 

 

5. Have fun learning!

....that it may be well with you..." (6:18)

 

 

 

Just as I am giving the students in my science class expectations to protect them and keep them from failing at the lab, so God does the same with this passage in Deuteronomy.  He wants to protect our families and give us all we need to be "well with us."  We have to be ready to hear Him, Listen to what He says, Follow Him, Obey Him, and Delight in His goodness.  He wants that for your family and mine.

 

 

So, I choose to love the life (as crazy as it may be!) God has given me and not for a moment miss the purrpose of this life's journey in my family.  Making the most of the opportunities to teach, talk, walk, and write the Words of Life on the hearts of my children. 

 

This is who I am called to be in life, all that other stuff is just an added bonus.

A life unplanned.....

I am a planner/organizer to the core.  The calendar/planner aisle at Wal-Mart makes me happy.  I am also as proud as a peacock to say that I am raising a daughter who is a planner.  We are the type that wakes up with a plan everyday.  Now whether or not we accomplish it is a totally different  story.  Elise and I dream big when it comes to plans.  One of the most exciting things that has happened to us was the invention of Cozi.  Cozi is a family organizing app that has revolutionized our family schedules.  If I have said it once, I have said it a million times to my family, "It's on Cozi." (in response to them asking the plans for the day)  I love Cozi and I organize G5's life on it.  If it's happening, it's on there!

"The plans of the heart belong to man,

But the answer of the tongue is from the Lord."

Proverbs 16:1 

But at this season of my life, planning has been a little tough to conquer. (urghh!) From little things, to large things, God has allowed unplanned things in our life to teach us much about Him and and to do His work well. 

 "I know, O Lord, that a man's way is not in himself;

Nor is it in a man who walks to direct his steps."

Jeremiah 10:23

Like today.

I sit in my brown chair this morning, embracing the sound of rain falling outside, thanks to 'Isaac'.  Our sunroom is a glorious place to be (except when it is over 100 degrees or under 40 degrees outside!!!),  especially days like today.  It's very peaceful today.  I was just reflecting back on how unplanned it was for me to be sitting here at 10:00 in the morning.  A weekday morning.  I am usually working during the school year, but due to school budget cuts, I am not this semester.  (and boy do I miss those kiddos at school!!!)  Unplanned. (FYI-on Cozi I had me going back to work on August 20!)

 

"For I know the plans that I have for you,

declares the Lord,

plans for welfare,

and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope."

Jeremiah 29:11

And yesterday, school, like in college,  started up again.  Last August the Lord placed on my heart a huge desire to go back to school for teaching.  So I enrolled at Southern Arkansas University last fall and completed the hours needed to enter the education program.  I started Block I in the Early Childhood Education program yesterday.  Totally unplanned, but it has turned out to be a huge blessing.  God has been very gracious to provide the time, energies, and finances for this to happen.

And I cannot ever forget about the unplanned summer 2012.  I did not have on Cozi a trip to Boston!  Up until all 5 of our feet touched the airplane floor in Little Rock, we were living by absolute faith.  No sight at all, other than God's faithfulness and His Word.  Totally unplanned for all 5 of us to go to Boston.

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts,

Neither are your ways My ways, " declares the Lord.

Isaiah 55:8

And then there was our time in Boston.  I had a bucket list of places I wanted to go to in between Ethan's games. I wanted to make this most of the trip!   God had provided the means for us to go at this time and we had no clue if we would ever be able to come back to this part of the country.  So it was so important to Warren and I to make memories together as a family.  But no matter how much planning I did, everyday was unplanned in its own way!  We never knew what we would find along the way, the means we traveled by, or the places we would pass by.

We stumbled upon Walden Pond (Thoreau) on our way to Vermont.  Loved it!

And God totally turned my direction for serving at church this fall around.  I had picked out, purchased, put on Cozi, and communicated with Warren my intentions to teach a ladies class.  The Lord had different plans.  He grabbed my heart a few weeks back and placed it in the student ministry for this fall. I just want to love on and encourage the students.  So that's where I will be!

This verse in Proverbs continually crosses my mind.  In fact, I cannot put something on Cozi without being reminded that I may plan, but it is HE who directs and decides those steps.

 

"The mind of man plans his way,

But the Lord directs His step."

Proverbs 16:9

And I am so glad. 

"Commit your works to the Lord,

And your plans will be established."

Proverbs 16:3

I am so glad He has me with the students right now. They are so precious and hungry for the Lord.  I don't want to miss the privilege of being a part of that.

I am so glad that the trip to Boston was in His plans and not mine. Otherwise, Elise and I would have never seen this most beautiful sight. 

I am glad that 15 years ago, God interrupted where I was in college with a blue eyed boy.  I wouldn't trade that time for anything.  (especially the naps! ) Now God is using the current college season in my life to reach classmates for Him, encourage my children educationally, and cause me to grow in so many areas. (including a desire to learn!)

And how thankful I am that God has given me a season of rest, even if it is for just a semester.   (although I will be volunteering teaching 3rd grade science starting next week.)  Only He can plan something so good.



So when life seems so unplanned.  When it seems so not in the plans.  When it seems not according to the plan.  He knows.

 

"O Lord, Thou art my God;

I will exalt Thee, I will give thanks to Thy name;

For Thou hast worked wonders,

Plans formed long ago, with perfect faithfulness."

Isaiah 25:1

Summer Fun! or maybe craziness??

I can't believe this summer is winding down already!  I heard some friends of ours call it the 'summer that wasn't.'  That makes me laugh because this summer has defeated all "normal" thoughts of summer.  It's been good, though.  I have stood in awe of God's ways all summer long.

The Lord has done great things for us,
and we are filled with joy.

Psalm 126:3

This past week was extra crazy, to say the least.  I feel like we were on a roller coaster ride all week!
It was just a few hours after I finished my blog last week that I heard the news of the reporter in St. Louis.  The reporter was out for a morning run along the Mississippi River.   He stumbled upon some of our things that were stolen.  Bibles, journals, a moldy retainer (our Tyler's), inhaler's and medication were all found.  This man was nice enough to even go back and look for more items that could be ours after he talked with Warren.  When the package arrived, this note lay on top.

In that box was my Bible.  It had been ran over and is a little torn, but boy did it feel good to hold.  I smile every time I open those pages.  I will even admit that I have hugged it like a long lost friend!

The fear of the Lord is pure,
enduring forever.
The decrees of the Lord are firm,
and all of them are righteous.

They are more precious than gold,
than much pure gold;
they are sweeter than honey,
than honey from the honeycomb.

Psalm 19:9-10

We also had the excitement of  Ethan's baseball team making it to the World Series!  They beat Crossett's 12 year old all-stars in Lamesa, Tx to clinch this spot as Southwest Champions.  We will all board airplanes Tuesday and head to Boston, Massachusetts.  That was definitely NOT in the summer plans. 

And Tyler passed his driver's test this past week.  Oh my!  When you look over and see your little blond hair child with your life in his hands, you are thankful our lives are in HIS hands.  Wasn't it just yesterday he was running over my feet with the plastic Today's Kids golf cart?

This past week I found myself praying to God, "I have no idea what to say."  My heart is so full of so many things now.  I am overwhelmed.  Overwhelmed by His blessings, overwhelmed with life, overwhelmed with His goodness, overwhelmed with schedules, overwhelmed by His mercy, overwhelmed with flight schedules, overwhelmed by the faith required.  Just plain overwhelmed!  It's so hard to describe!  I am sure you can relate. 

People were overwhelmed with amazement.

“He has done everything well,” they said.

“He even makes the deaf hear and the mute speak.”
Mark 7:37

In my prayer journal for the past couple of weeks (which was returned by the reporter, too!), each day basically starts like this:

"God, Guide us.  I don't even know what to say."

Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

Psalm 25:5

It seems the situations in life are so much bigger than us, but not our God.  And I just don't want to miss Him, while overwhelmed.  Crazy statement, huh?  I just don't want to miss what He is up to.

The huge miracle of having my Bible returned to me in a city of 318,000 people and 65 square miles, is so much bigger than me.  I can't even wrap my mind around it.  And the note, I really can't wrap my mind around it.  It's a daily reminder how powerful God's Word is.  And how God answers prayers, wow!

Ethan's team heading to the World Series and the awesome ways God has worked in the relationships and now provisions.  It's way beyond words for me.

And that child of ours driving.  Enough said.  His grace is enough and more than I can express.

So God, guide us.
Guide us in the way that brings You glory.
Guide us in the way that brings others to You.
Guide is in the way that brings Life.
Guide us in this "overwhelmed" time.
Guide us.

May God be gracious to us and bless us
and make his face shine on us—
so that your ways may be known on earth,
your salvation among all nations.

May the peoples praise you, God;
may all the peoples praise you. 
May the nations be glad and sing for joy,
for you rule the peoples with equity
and guide the nations of the earth. 
May the peoples praise you, God;
may all the peoples praise you.

The land yields its harvest;
God, our God, blesses us. 

May God bless us still, so that all the ends of the earth will fear him.

Psalm 67